What A Day! :)
So today has been a bloody wonderful day!!! Beautiful sunshine shining outside kind of matches how Im feeling on the inside. Bright, sunny and happy! I was on the down and outs this week with starting off having a great week full of opportunities to almost having them disappear on me. Then today as the sun is shining bright and my dog being happier then a pig in shit, I get the call I have been waiting for! I got the JOB!!!! I finally found something! Seriously I am just one happy girl. Not only will this job be paying me more but it is even closer to home then the last one. I am so giddy right now that the sky could fall in and I wouldn’t care!
Anyways moving on, since last night my Mom has been up and shopping in that dreaded awfulness called black friday when sales in the States are big and lots of people get their Christmas shopping done. I tried it last year and hated every minute of it. Long line ups for cheap prices… screw that! I would rather pay full price and stay toasty and warm and dry. My Mom on the other hand is shopping FREAK! She literally could go for 24 hours straight just to get the good deals and makes Christmas full and plentiful. Seriously… its like we are still kids when it comes to christmas time with the shit she comes up with.
I told Brandon and Julie I would like to be shopping for a niece of nephew by this time next year or else!! Julie always gives me the eye when I say things like that or call her Mrs. Janes. Tehehe! I swear if they could work it out so that Brandon could carry the child to term they would already be pregnant. That would suit them! Last year for christmas Julie got a pink tool box with pink tools and Brandon got something for the kitchen. Wow! They’re…. unique is what I would call them.
Im on what they would call a natural high and need to get out so I gotta get a move on here!
Back Home
The feeling of being home safe and sound is one that I am welcoming today. I feel as though I accomplished something by getting through that short-lived trip without any issues. Celeste and I get along like peanut butter and jelly and we have traveled almost everywhere with each other. This time it was just the two of us and I was suppose to be Celeste’s guide when in reality she was the one to get us where we needed to be. That young lady amazes me just in how strong of a person she is and how beautiful she has become on the inside and out.
It was nice to feel like I fit in as Katrina and Celeste’s sister and how close the three of us are together. Although it was a lot of travel for three days I wouldnt have changed a thing about it. I was able to come home late sunday night and get up and head to my first job interview Monday morning. Not my ideal time for the interview but I will take what I can get.
Now next on my plate is a photo shoot someone has contacted me about. I am supposed to help out in shooting a how to hairdo’s for a hairstylist website. I am so excited even though it is something I am doing as a favour… but I will get a free credit for a cut and colour or whatever else I want afterwards by the top hairstylist. I would have done it without that no questions asked. I am flattered that I was chosen and it really gives me that boost I needed. So happy when one door closes another opens!
Assholes!
I am more than annoyed this morning. For the past week my Mom has been off work at the Doctors request when he informed her she had contracted the H1N1 flu. I have honestly never seen my Mom so sick before and she is the type that struggles when something tries to slow her down. She continues to go throughout the day doing something constructive with her time or running the household, which is something she has always done without so much as muttering any kind of complaint. It’s always been that way. Now she works full-time at a place that treats her like shit and a boss that has the balls to ask her for a doctor’s note. This is what happened after my Mom has been bombarded with emails from her boss asking her to do this and that for her while she is off sick. I don’t think Im being unreasonable when thoughts of pure hate runs through my mind for those people in that small stuffy office. If they even had some kind of a heart and phoned here to talk to my Mom her voice would speak for itself but no, they like to contact her through emails telling her what she needs to do next. It makes me sick and angry!! I suggested to my Mom that she should go in wait and watch for them to get sick with the damn H1N1 flu and ask them how it feels. Then I think someone might not be able to take it and pass away like that lady that was sent home twice from Richmond emergency. I dont even know what to say except the flu is not something you take lightly these days and maybe step back and consider that someones health is more important than any task that needs to be preformed. The task will be there tomorrow but if your not there to do it then what’s the point?
At Our Front door
Well, it’s nice to finally meet you.
I’ve been waiting for your call.
I’ve noticed you’ve been crying,
And, I’ve watched you pace the halls.
Whatever has been hurting you,
I can make it disappear.
You know you have nothing to lose,
Nothing to live for, nothing to fear.
Thank you, for your invention.
I’ll be sure not to leave your side.
We’ll become very fast acquainted.
My naive child, there’s no use trying to hide.
I should probably introduce myself.
I am your very own addiction.
But, you can not be angry with me.
I am you own self-conviction.
I bet you feel rather stupid,
Falling right into my lap.
I’m a master at manipulation.
You’ll never escape my trap.
How does it feel to dance with the Devil?
For he and I are one in the same.
God, has completely abandoned you,
So, you might as well stay in the game.
Are you honestly going to try and beat me?
A useless battle if you want to know.
Go ahead and make an attempt.
Besides, I’m in the mood for a good show.
I guess, you think your special.
But, your sobriety has only lasted a year.
I’m still around every corner,
In the back of your mind
I’m your greatest fear.
I’ll always be your dirty little secret.
I won’t disappear over time.
Twenty years from now you may falter,
And, I’ll be the first thing that comes to mind.
A vicious cycle, that’s what your thinking,
But, I’m only speaking the truth.
I’m Satin’s weapon of mass destruction.
The silent killer of America’s youth.
It’s genius when you think of it.
Everyone’s looking for some Armageddon war.
But, what the fools don’t realize,
Is everyday Armageddon walks through their front door
Every Night Every Dream
I’m running into unknown territory tripping and failing to overcome the real feeling of running for my life. Ringing is heard shouting in my ears as if to warn me of the dangers that are following me along my path. I can’t see what’s after me but I know I don’t need to slow down to find out. What I don’t know scares me. I try to speed up my pace only to feel as if I’m not getting anywhere. Sweat dripping from my forehead and tears filling my eyes, I know I have lost this battle. One final kick towards the unknown and Im startled by a sharp pain… confusion and fuzzy thoughts fill my head just as I remember the danger that was behind me… I shoot up out of bed to realize I had been dreaming the whole time. Although the dangers werent real my heart is still pounding and my eyes are teary as my anger begins to arise. Who could go to sleep knowing that this happens every single night??
